Non-Celibacy

  My celibacy is on purpose. You see, it is most certainly not an accident. Too many years of faking #newyearnewme led me to bed after bed of bullshit and lies. "My lies." Lies I told myself saying “I can handle it" as he licks his lips and leans in, “I’m not really looking for … Continue reading Non-Celibacy

Rough

I miss the touch. That rough touch. You always gave me more than I needed, and yet, I always wanted more. I wanted more from us! I wanted more than our bed. I pant and relive every inch of that bed. Rolling over, we would meet eye-to-eye. You grab the back of my neck. Pull … Continue reading Rough

5 Reasons Women Lose Themselves in Relationships 

In most of my past relationships, I have been the one building and sustaining the love, trust, and intimacy. I would give my time, energy, money, and my heart in my relationships because I value making my-love, feel loved and appreciated. In most cases, this behavior is not viewed negatively. There is nothing wrong with … Continue reading 5 Reasons Women Lose Themselves in Relationships 

Missing a dream

I don't miss you, I miss who I thought you were. I miss the dream... The daydreams of you holding me tight as I fall asleep in your arms. The romantic trips we never took. Your eyes burning with desire for me. The thoughts I had of us living happily-ever-after... Our wedding day... Date nights... … Continue reading Missing a dream

I’ll wait

Alone. Quiet. Still. patiently waiting... A dream so vivid. Hope fills my lungs, exhaling a desire to know you. still waiting... Refusing to settle like most of them. I would rather wait... ...for all I need and all that I do not possess. I see you. Feel you. Want you... Dreaming while I wait for … Continue reading I’ll wait