if you say you love me…

“If you say you love me,

and you won’t let me go,

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a love on repeat…

Beg…?
Plead…?
I pray constantly…

…for you.

I pray for me.
…for us!

So many tears shed…
Nights spent, lying awake with swollen eyes.
Days to weeks…weeks to months…months to years…
Trying…

Hoping for a change…
Hoping to look up, and one day it will be better…
Different… but the pain repeats.

So, I continue to beg…
Plead…
Pray…

I just know that one day it will be, destiny…
All smiles.
No fear.
No pain.
No more waiting…
…wondering…
…needing more…

…repeat.

I Beg…
I Plead…
I Pray …
…For us!
I yearn for a heart of joy…
To be complete in our love…
To be wanted…
To be desired…
…seen for all that I am…

…for all that have become…

…for who I will be.

Strong, Passionate, and Loving…
With a heart that pounds for what we could be…
For our love…
Our family…
Our future…
Our life…

-Pinkspen 

 

 

 

Poem Clarification:

I wrote this poem in 5 minutes…

My heart was broken, and I realized that I was repeating the same actions…having the same conversations, yet expecting a different result in the healthiness of my relationship. Relationships are difficult…they can be hard to maintain… after many years in the same relationship, it is easy to see your significant other, only one way. But, in reality, we change constantly. We are always growing… wanting more or less… life makes us need different things in our relationships and it is up to your significant other to understand this and love you through all aspects.

It can be so difficult to express how we feel when we are speaking to a loved one, because we have so many emotions invested, and we forget all we wanted to say as soon as we look at them, because we love them.

I was done talking. So, I decided to do something different. I decided to say everything that I would say to someone else, to the person I love, not verbally, I wrote it down and as I began to write, the words became poetic… broken thoughts, all carrying the same meaning:

I find that, when I write how I feel, instead of focusing on my initial reaction, I am able to get better understanding. It is important to me to always aim to be the best version of myself. There are things that work at one point in time, that no longer do. The older I get, I am noticing that my tolerance for dissatisfaction is limited. My patience is changing and understanding that what I deserve vs. what I want, clash at times, and it takes a strong person to determine how to handle this reality.

For now, I choose to write!

 

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Promises

If you tell me I am not smart enough, I’ll pass every test!
If you say that I am not pretty enough, I will take selfie after selfie!
If you tell me I’ll fail, on my worst day, I will succeed!
If you break my heart, I will not give up on love.
If you try to stop me, I will keep going.
If you hate me, I will love me!
If you don’t support me, I will not fall.
If you won’t hear me, I will make you listen!
If you think I will not make it, I will make sure I live out my dreams!
If you say that I am weak, I will only become stronger.
If you give up on me, I will never stop trying!
If you tell me that I am not good enough, I’ll show you who’s bad!
If you leave me, I’ll make you wish you would have stayed.
If you say I am not worth it, I will show you my value.
If you turn your back on me, I will only move forward!
If you dismiss me, I will persevere.
If you doubt me, I’ll prove you wrong!
If you tell me I can’t, I will…

-Pinkspen

Celebrate and be proud of everything you are. 



via Daily Prompt: Promises

 

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