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Makeup Artist: Taylor Mckenzie Williams

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5 Greatest Things about Toddlers

Being a new mom is a journey! 💋 It is a weight gaining, energy lowering, tears shedding, and yet, a beauitful and joyful journey

My daughter is my first and only, and at 18 months or 1.5 years old, I am realizing that this is the age I am going to miss with her; the age right before the terrible-two’s. 

Here are the 5 Greatest Things about Toddlers

1. So polite. 

If you are raising your children to respect their elders and to be kind, they will say please and thank you for everything. It is over the top. 

My daughter says “tank yous” when she is giving me something that I asked her for. Sometimes, she will give me something, and she will say “tank yous” and “ya wehcome.”

2. So loving!

I know that one day, maybe not at age 2, but one day the spontaneous hugs and kisses will stop. When I ask for a kiss, my daughter will run away from me like it is a game, but sometimes when I least expect it, she will give me 10 kisses in a row and say “luva yous” and I melt…. 😍

3. So fearless!

Who dives face first into the carpet? Who closes the door behind them in a dark room? Who tries to climb over the couch to get behind the couch? Who has on mutliple occassions, while saying “hot” try to touch the stove? Toddlers! 

They have some fears, but they are learning and are willing to try new things, like seeing if they can handle rolling off the bed! 

4. So persistent!

Yes, being asked repeatedly if she can go “upa there” meaning, “pick me up, I want to see whatever your doing up there, I am too short.” 

My child is beyond persistent, and she is curious. If she wants something she will not give up. Even when she gets frustrated, she will cry, flip out, compose herself and then try again. 

She spent about 30 minutes yesterday trying to fasten the straps in her high chair, and she was not sitting in it.

5. So joyful!

Have you ever seen a child laugh while crying? That is my daughter. Toddlers fall out, cry, scream, yell, but somehow, 1 minute later, they are completely over it, smiling and laughing. 

Joy is embedded in children when they are born into a healthy enviornment, and even without, a toddler can find the joy in life when adults can’t. It can be a bubble, lights, a box, or rocks (my daughter).

Adults can’t do this over-and-over again. Seeing her smile, hearing her laugh, makes life so magical. There is nothing like a happy child. 
You just have to love a toddler. 

-Pinkspen 💋

a Mother’s Day Love Letter 

To my dearest child,

I could not see you smile, hear you laugh, or hold you in my arms, but I loved you in the womb. 

You came into this world a surprise to mommy, but it was a beautiful surprise….

The first time I held you, we cried together as you immediately latched to my breast. 

Seeing you smile, makes me smile. 

Hearing you laugh, makes me laugh. 

From your first words to your first steps, I fall more-and-more in love with you.

You are the greatest Mother’s Day gift! I will love you forever, entirely.

Your mother,

-Pinkspen 💋

Becoming a mom was and is the best part of my life. Is it tough? Yes! Do I get frustrated? Yes! Would I have it any other way? Not for anyone or anything in this world. 

Facts of Life 

Historically men were more important that women and children. I am not going to do a breakdown of how race, ethnicity, social class, age, and religion tie into this, but in most cultures, men are dominant, in control, and considered more important. Although, great strides have been made, with Women’s Rights/Feminism and Child Abuse Protection Laws, the historical foundation of putting men before women and children, still affects us today when it comes to gender roles, wage gaps, and the rates of children who are abused, neglected, and living in poverty.

Here is a brief history from History Magazine, on how taking a bath was considered a privilege, and men received the benefit of that privilege:

Continue reading “Facts of Life “

#BlackLivesMatter: pro-life/pro-choice

I read a post Black Lives Matter by an anti-abortion blogger.

As a black mother, of course the title caught my eye, but it was the statement that started my journey to a greater knowledge.

Original statement: “Four out of ten black children are killed in the womb. Black lives matter?

Continue reading “#BlackLivesMatter: pro-life/pro-choice”

The most difficult part of being a mother

As a new mother, I am often asked, “how do you like being a mother?” I think that is a strange question to ask someone… If I said, “I hate it!” everyone would think I was the worst person. Right? 😉 but typically, the answers are:

“I love it!”

“It is the best thing that ever happened to me.”

“…it is a challenge but I wouldn’t change it for the world.”

But, the other day, someone asked me, what I feel was the most difficult question regarding motherhood.

“What is the most difficult part of being a mother?” 

(what a question…)

I stopped, thought about it…and there were so many things that came to mind like:

teaching my daugther to latch…

pumping late at night so my breast don’t become engorged…

getting my daugther to fall asleep without nursing…

teaching my daugther not to bite the teet…

vaxinations…

waking up on the hour to feed…

always being tired…

the selflessness…

Although, all challenging, were not the most difficult parts of being a mother.

The most challenging part of being a mother, and I know most mothers would agree is learning to let go!

Letting go of your children is the challenge because it happens almost immediately.

Allow your child cry themselves to sleep so that they are not sleeping in your bed until they are 5, is letting them go…

When they crawl, walk, climb stairs, try to get off the couch and the bed on their own, is a part of letting them go and explore the world around them…

Being a parent is constantly letting your child go because from they day they are born, they are getting older, and it never stops. Children grow up, and that is the most difficult part about being a parent; you have to let them go, be, learn, see, and experience life. Every parent wants and misses when their child needed them for everything. My daughter is 13 months, and I miss it already. I can’t even wrap my head around her first day of school, first sleepover, first adult tooth, first relationship, her first kiss, her first breakup; when she gets married, her first child…

…from the day a child is born, you are letting them go, and its the hardest thing that I have ever done.

 -Pinkspen

via Discover Challenge: Tough Questions

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Maternity Leave in America: The story of the struggling mother

I found out I was pregnant, one month after I received my Masters Degree…

Just before I was about to transition from student to working woman, I was hit with the reality that I was going to be a working woman who was also a mother.

My boyfriend and I were broke; living with my mother, and about to move into a 1-bedroom apartment, because that was all we could afford.

Continue reading “Maternity Leave in America: The story of the struggling mother”

The best Thanksgivings are Chaotic

If you are up at 6:00a, whipping sweet potatoes for pies, you are having a good Thanksgiving.

When the MACY’s parade comes on, and you are singing along with the cast of CATS, you are having a good Thanksgiving.

If you are running late, but you have to go to the store to buy one more can of Cranberry sauce before going to grandma’s house, you are having a good Thanksgiving…

When there are two red lip stick, kiss stains on your cheeks, you are having a good Thanksgiving.

If you are wearing an itchy sweater that your grandmother knitted, you are having a good Thanksgiving.

If the 1-year-old is running around in her diaper and won’t put on her brand-new outfit, you’re having a good Thanksgiving.

When there is not enough room in the oven to bake the macaroni & cheese, you are having a good Thanksgiving.

If the game is tied 13-13, in the 4th quarter with seconds on the clock, and you are clenching your teeth, praying that the Detroit Lions make this last field goal, you are having a good Thanksgiving.

If the room is filled with the sounds of too early to be listening to this, Christmas music, you’re having a good Thanksgiving.

When your uncle is telling the same story that you have heard 100 times, you are having a Thanksgiving.

When you have given thanks, made your plate, and go to take your first bite, and then you must give it to your toddler, you are having a good Thanksgiving.

If there are stains all over the couch, loveseat, and the carpet, you are having a good Thanksgiving.

-Pinkspen

via Daily Prompt: Chaotic

a Mothers Deepest Fear…

“Do me one better!” That’s what my mother would say.

As a new parent, I understand the desire to do better for your children. You want to give them more than you had growing up and you want them to desire more for themselves as well.

Outside of the material fancies of the world, I believe parents also want their children to be everything that they were not when they were at their worst and to reverse all of their mistakes through their children, especially when it comes to intimate relationships.

The term smother as defined in the Urban Dictionary is, “a mother or overbearing girlfriend that smothers their adult child/boyfriend with too much love…”

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Smother

We all know those mothers who live vicariously through their daughters’ relationships, education, career choices, and social status. Daughters with smothers are bombarded with overprotective, judgmental, and extremely pushy behaviors when it comes to their life choices concerning love and relationships.

A smother feels that her daughters mate must looks, dress, behave, and maintain a certain social status, based on her standards, not her daughters.

I have friends with smothers, and often times, it causes them to seek an unhealthy perfection in men. It seems to also cause resentment toward their mother if they feel like they can’t meet a certain standard or expectation.

I believe that this behavior goes beyond the basic desire for a daughter to be better than her mother. The mother that is considered to be a smother, is given this title due to her deepest fear, herself.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. You’re playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” -Marianne Williamson, from her book, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of a Course in Miracles.

http://skdesigns.com/internet/articles/quotes/williamson/our_deepest_fear/

This was a quote that my mother had framed for all three of her daughters, and I make sure that it is hanging up in my house.

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When a woman becomes a mom, often times, she immediately becomes her best self, because she wants to be the best parent she can be.

Every family has generational curses, and if there is a history of infidelity, teenage pregnancy, or single-parenting in your family, it is only natural to fear that your daughter will struggle with these concerns as well. A mother wants her child to emulate her best behaviors, not her worst.

This may cause mothers to place high expectations and standards onto their daughters, and when the expectation is not met, a mother is faced with her deepest fear, seeing her true self in her daughter. Those mothers who have not forgiven themselves can become smothers and are projecting their own personal fears onto their daughters.

As a mother of a two month old baby girl, I find myself thinking about all the bad choices and decisions I have made in my journey towards LADYHOOD

I think it is a realistic feeling to have fears that my daughter will make the same mistakes with men that I made. But, before I was a mother, I was a daughter, and it is important for me to remember who I was before I became a parent. Even though my mother taught me to always do her one better, I am certain that I made some of the bad choices she made, and more.

As a daughter, with a daughter, it is important for me to teach her about the mistakes I made in my relationships but to also understand that she may make similar mistakes as she gets older.

Mothers, do not fear seeing yourself in your daughter! You will, because she is a part of you. The more you smother her, the more difficult it will be to break those generational curses.

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I desire so much for my daughter. I want her to see her value in life; to know that she is beautiful, talented, intelligent, and imperfect just like all of humankind. I want her to see me constantly trying to reach my goals so that she will see that she can obtain her own. I want her to embrace when she makes a mistake and when she succeeds. All lessons, are lessons learned, and even if she hits a barrier, I want her to be confident enough to create new ones.

When it comes to relationships, I want my daughter to know that she is worth the wait, and that no man is worth compromising her morals and values.

Even in my mistakes, my mother always uplifted me; a mother is always there to support her child. I always felt inspired and empowered by her, and this is the kind of mother that I want to be, not a smother. Forgiving myself for the mistakes that I made with men was the difficult part in my journey toward LADYHOOD. When it comes to motherhood, I know that I am not perfect; we all fall short, make mistakes, and struggle in our imperfections, and my daughter will to.

Just like my mother, I will be there to support my daughter along her LADYHOOD journey as well.

-Pinkspen


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