Rough

I miss the touch. That rough touch.

You always gave me more than I needed, and yet, I always wanted more.

I wanted more from us! I wanted more than our bed.

I pant and relive every inch of that bed.

Rolling over, we would meet eye-to-eye.

You grab the back of my neck.

Pull me close, to kiss my panting mouth.

Sometimes in the middle of the night, I can still feel your mouth on mine…

You would grab my hips, pulling me closer, making me squeal with anticipation.

I think that’s what I miss the most…

I miss the moment right before the moment…

before the rough!

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5 Reasons Women Lose Themselves in Relationships 

In most of my past relationships, I have been the one building and sustaining the love, trust, and intimacy. I would give my time, energy, money, and my heart in my relationships because I value making my-love, feel loved and appreciated.

In most cases, this behavior is not viewed negatively. There is nothing wrong with being attentive and caring in your relationship, but not without self-love, which I was lacking.

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Almost. 

When your betrayal is quiet, the hurt is deeper. Not quiet as in “cannot hear” or “softly” but quiet as in silent, direct pain… sobering pain… absolute truth pain, designed to break me. You creep into my heart and steal it as you fade away. A distant thought as to how I could allow myself to betray myself….neglect myself….. How could I continue to press and pull at my soul and expect it not to bury deep inside of me? You tried to take my essence, and yet I still care while you dismiss my insist, and it was mandatory. Requiring more. Deserving more. Only you are absent from the magnitude of what I gave compared to what most would. Only you can destroy the beauty around you until its decayed and rotten. I lost the desire to care, to try, to give, to see the beauty within you that is now buried inside of resentment and fear. Afraid to have happiness and joy, to advance, to elevate with me to our dream. Your nightmares have crept into our reality and it almost destroyed my ability to love again… Almost. 

-Pinkspen 

Congratulations to Ta’lor: April Winner of the College Mate Contest

I am so honored to be the 2nd time winner of College Mate’s Monthly Writing Contest. Thank you Alexis for the opportunity and I hope all college and perspective college students see the value of this resource;

College Mate is helping students all over the world learn and know how to navigate through college life!

Please check out my winning article, How to Maintain a Happy Long Distance Relationship to learn about ways to improve you LDR while in college and even after college.


Thank you all for your Likes, Comments, Pingbacks, Reblogs, and Shares to social media! I appreciate your support and hope you check out my website LADYHOOD journey to be inspired.

Pinkspen 

COLLEGE MATE

Ta’lor did it again! Her ability to write candid and relatable posts has made her a College Mate Contest winner for the second consecutive time. This ties her with Shandean Williams-Reid, the only other contestant to win twice in a row.

Ta’lor’s winning submission gave tips on how to maintain a happy long distance relationship. This is a scenario that many of us can relate to when transitioning from high school into college; and then again, from college into the real working world.

Even so, Ta’lor admits she didn’t expect the kind of support she received from readers. She says:

There was one comment on my article that stood out to me. It said, “sharing of social media login info – this is soo damn right; I’m in total agreement with you.”

When I wrote this article, I thought that I would receive a lot of push back on this…  and instead, there…

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a Mother’s Day Love Letter 

To my dearest child,

I could not see you smile, hear you laugh, or hold you in my arms, but I loved you in the womb. 

You came into this world a surprise to mommy, but it was a beautifulsurprise….

The first time I held you, we cried together as you immediately latched to my breast. 

Seeing you smile, makes me smile. 

Hearing you laugh, makes me laugh. 

From your first words to your first steps, I fall more-and-more in love with you.

You are the greatest Mother’s Day gift! I will love you forever, entirely.

Your mother,

-Pinkspen 💋

Becoming a mom was and is the best part of my life. Is it tough? Yes! Do I get frustrated? Yes! Would I have it any other way? Not for anyone or anything in this world.