French Kissing Myself

Posted on by Ta'lor Pinkston in Girl Talk, poetry

I really hated myself. 

I certainly did not love me.

I betrayed myself, allowing crap to shit on me, as I stood still believing the crap was deserving.

A self-inflicted wound that could not heal.

Stabbing myself in the heart.

I was afraid of being me.

To trust me.

To forgive me.

To love me.

To be me!

Hating myself only limited myself.

Dimming my light

Hiding my worth. 

Blocking my blessings. 

I don’t recognize that woman anymore.

How could I hate something created with purpose?

Now, I live unashamed.

I am free from the bondage of self-doubt, fear and insecurity because I am running toward my pain instead of hiding from it.

I am embracing my tears by allowing them to flow instead of wiping them dry.

I stood still for too long.

Now, I am running into my own arms and french-kissing myself.

I am checking in with myself.

I am transparent with myself.

I am showing up for myself.

I am trusting myself.

I am giving to myself.

I am learning myself.

I am listening to myself.

I am loving myself.

 

© 2018 Ta’lor Pinkston, LADYHOOD journey, LLC

Published by Ta'lor Pinkston

Hey beautiful! I am Ta'lor Pinkston, MSW|Founder of LADYHOOD journey, LLC|Self-love Social Worker|Women’s Self-love Lifestyle Blogger|Poet|Prospective Self-love Coach|Feminist|Equality Advocate LADYHOOD journey, LLC focuses on helping college girls, mothers, and every woman to incorporate self-love into their lifestyle, to be advocates for women's empowerment, and to focus on Healing Over Everything. Some of the topics discussed in my blog includes beauty standards, motherhood, body shaming, equality, and toxic relationships. In February 2018, the LADYHOOD journey Self-love Box will be launching with items to help you take care of you. I want women my site feeling inspired, uplifted, supported, and empowered on every stage of the journey. I love to spend time with my daughter, going to local bars and restaurants with family & friends, online shopping, photography, writing poetry, sipping Tea , sitting on my porch, trying new wines, and listening to music from artists like Chance the Rapper, Sabrina Claudio, Jessie Reyez, Jhene Aiko, and Coldplay,

19 thoughts on “French Kissing Myself”

  4. Yes, say it, I said it and I’m going to keep saying it out loud and I’m gonna to tell others about!

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