Depressed Love 

It breaks my heart that I cannot make you feel better…that I cannot take away the pain, hurt, and anger.

The roller-coaster of emotions has embedded our hearts, for I have adopted your pain. 

When I speak, I feel like my words are wrong… sometimes it feels like my support does not help, instead it hurts.

You want to stay in; I want to go out.

You want to be alone; I want to be around friends and family. 

You don’t want to talk about it; I want to give advice and help.

I am constantly questioning my actions, to not upset you. It can be exhausting, but I do it because I love you.

I want you to see your worth, and know that you mean the world to me.

I have been by your side and on your team from the beginning, and I don’t want that to change, but before we break one-another down, we need a change, or we will never be able to build each other back up.

Your words hurt sometimes, and even though I know you do not mean it, I can’t help but to feel like a target and take it personally.

Not knowing what to say or what to do is an understatement, because sometimes, I have completely given up on trying… but, I always come back because I know you can get through this….

Forgive me for giving up in those moments….

 

-Pinkspen

 

If you or a loved one are struggling with depression and want some information on how to support them and yourself, please read the article, Helping Someone with Depression: What You Can Do to Support a Friend or Loved One’s Recovery. I hope this article helps you find your self-worth, value, and gain perspective on the importance of self-care and self-love when dealing with depression. 

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Ta'lor Pinkspen

Welcome ladies and gentlemen! This is Ta'lor Pinkspen, BA|MSW|SFW, Inspirational Blogger for women, Poet, Prospective Self-love Coach, Feminist, Equality Advocate, and Women & Family Therapist My blog focuses on Women's Empowerment, Beauty Standards, Body Positivity, Motherhood, Healthy Relationships, College girls and Equality. LADYHOOD journey seeks to uplift all women and promote self-love. LADYHOOD journey challenges social concerns like body shaming, beauty standards, racial and gender discrimination, in order to empower women to be advocates and to incorporate self-love into their journey. I want women and all my readers to leave my site feeling uplifted, supported, and empowered in every stage of life. I love to spend time with my daughter, going to local bars and restaurants with family & friends, online shopping, photography, writing poetry, sipping Chia Tea or Iced Coffee, sitting on my porch while drinking a glass of dry red wine or dark beer, and listening to music from artists like Chance the Rapper, SZA, Pentatonix, H.E.R, Alessia Cara, Sabrina Claudio, Jhene Aiko, Frank Ocean, Coldplay, and Kings of Leon.

12 thoughts on “Depressed Love 

  1. I like the way you can express emotion in words. In your blog about depressed love kind of reminds me of my parents. I grew up thinking that there was no such thing as love. I never knew how love can be so effective towards people. During my adolescent years I’ve dated and somehow when I look back, I know why those relationships never worked out. It was because I was acted like my parents. I can’t tell you how many times they’ve split up. I’ve lost count. It was so bad. It was to the point where my brother couldn’t even recognize his own father. Even when I was a little girl, I wanted to help my parents solve their issues. One time when my parents’ were arguing with one another I went into the kitchen area and basically screamed at them to take their conversation outside, because I couldn’t bare the cries of my younger siblings. I was 10 when I did that, and not a day goes by where I forget about it. You’re very inspiring and I hope I get to read more.

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    1. I am so thankful to you for sharing some of your story. So many of us stay in relationships hoping they will get better, but I now that you have to take situations for what they are. My situation was rough and I refused to stay tied in to a love that was not willing to do anything to heal. Eve after suggesting counseling, he was unwilling and depression and alcohol do not mix well, so I had to let him go! I am glad that you and I are stronger now from learning from our parents and our own mistakes. The journey is beautiful no matter what because we are able to grow and become better every day! Thank you for reading and taking the time to connect 💋 KIT

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    1. It is really liberating to know that I am not the only one dealing with this. It truly is difficult, but maybe love will sustain us… thank you for taking the time to read and share your thoughts. KIT

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  2. I think that this is what I didnt do. I didnt ask enough of what is needed…instead I gave too much advice. Thank you for taking the time to read. Depression and Anxiety are difficult and you are so amazing for sharing help with others. God bless you and your journey!

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    1. I’m glad I could provide some insight. Let me add that even though they couldn’t say or do anything to help me out of my depression, just knowing they were in my life and loved me was enough to keep me going on.

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  3. That’s very beautiful. I have suffered with bouts of depression, general anxiety and panic attacks for over 15 years now. I see the pain on my loved ones faces when they want to help. I know the feeling of wanting to help but not being able to. I think you described it perfectly. Best advice would be to just be what they need at that time and let them know you’re there for them if/when they need you.

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